IB, I too have wanted to be rescued since this whole ordeal began for me 7 months ago. I mean wouldn't it be nice to just take a vacation from ourselves for a while? Be rescued and not have to worry or have a care in the world for a while? I mean the emotions hit us like tidal waves and it's almost like grasping at anything to survive the next emotional tidal wave that comes.
I even prayed for a rebound relationship to land in my lap just for the distraction. Just to feel like a person again, just to feel like Im not damaged. I needed a band aid, something to numb the pain, anything for relief. I've wanted to run and hide. I've wanted to just not deal with it all. Then I wondered if I was heading into MLC from stbx's MLC! That helped me get a better grip!
So I just told myself I was on this rollercoaster whether I wanted to be or not, so I better just suck it up and just go through whatever emotion was going to be thrown at me for the day, and see where it got me.
Guess what? It really does get better! I feel like I've resurfaced from the Abyss and have my head above water. Now the next journey is just swimming to land..... one stroke at a time.
The only way we get there is just to go through it. Embrace it, feel the emotions you're feeling. Don't fight them, just feel them. Undersand them, heck make friends with them.
It wasn't until I allowed myself to stop fighting these emotions did I finally start to feel like I made progress.
