In_Shock: I too have read Frankl's book. At the time, it didn't resound with me because I hadn't yet suffered in a way that would make me feel his words. Now, after my sitch, I must make a mission out of procuring my own copy and reading it again. I will also check out "Night," thanks for the recommendation.
Gritter: Glad to see you back on the boards, man. And thanks for keeping it real, as always. Where am I, you ask? Confused and unsure of who I am or what I want.
Happier, more stable with being myself, less willing to accept as much of the blame as I once did for why our R dissolved.
Still harboring fond memories of my W as she once was but feeling strangely numb towards her now. Fear that she'll never be that loving woman again. Still holding onto hope of R but not sure if I can ever trust her to stay committed for life. Concerned that maybe we're just not right for each other after all.
Becoming comfortable with being social, making friends, meeting new people, and loving all of that. Now sometimes dreaming of what it would be like of finding somebody with most of the things that I loved about my W minus the drama and instability. Realizing that I'm still not ready for anything on the dating front, not even a "fling." Scared of injuring someone else in indulging in such an R.
That's about where I am. I think you're quite right to question my readiness in the process, and I plan to hash it out with my C. We'll see if I get that far in 5 sessions -- I doubt I can afford anything beyond that, even with my health insurance.
