Don't know how much longer I can endure this!

[tested metal]

I need to be more assertive and stand up for myself.

I need to be able to accept that not everyone has to like me and it is not necessarily my fault all the time.

I accept the fact that part of me does want to punish W for hurting me and I don't really like that part of me right now. I am working on changing that.

From now on I will set boundaries with others and do things because I want to, not because I feel I have to. If I do a generous act then it will be because I want to for the sake that it is a generous act and nothing more.


I need to make sure that this mess will not affect my relationships with others or future relationships regarding trusting them.