A Bklyn tale

[BklynMom]

thanks for the support guys.

Coyote Thanks so much for your notes it seems like you have a lot wisdom to impart but I was left confused by your post. I didnt know what issues I should write down, issues I have in my M or individual issues. (Right now the big issue is I dont have a husband and my kids daddy is not at home that is the issue!)

Is this an example of what you are talking about:
Issue: I am quick to judge others and sometimes dont think about how my words will effect people.
Solution: Continue taking prozac and think before I speak. Go to Alanon meetings. Read a morning prayer.

Also was confused by your emphasizing that I am not responsible for my H decisions. Does it seem like I feel responsible? Thanks again Coyote for taking the time to post to me. I guess I am still newish and especially new to the self examination stuff so I may need a 2x4.

I am trying to get out of this self pity mind frame but havent gotten over it yet. I used all my energy to make it till December without losing my mind by thinking and praying he would be back by Christmas and now that I see the reality that he's not coming back for Christmas I am devastated.

I am torn between staying hopeful and not feeling like I am living in a fantasy.

I have told close family & friends but still neighbors and causal friends dont know my sitch & it feels like I am living a lie. Parents from my D3 school say - will your H be back from Atlanta for Christmas and I say yes but feel like I am being deceitful.

Good News Today: I bummed into a mutual causal friend who said that he had run into my H at the same spot we bummed into each other. This friend didnt know about our sitch so I took that as a positive that my H hadnt been telling people we were spilt up.