I get the feelin that once he is truly alone... (no roommates..) that he will see things differently.
Today lunch went sort of as I expected, he was vague, but said he was only taking the job because me and the kids are his priority, boy does he have a funny way of showing it.
He also said our future together seems pretty bleak. that he doesnt see how we can work on us with him being so far away. He complained about having no money, which i have no idea why he doesnt have money. Or his idea of no money is very different from mine.
He said he doesnt want to be all negative but also doesnt want to hang a carrot out there that has no hope so right now he just plain doesnt know.. yet some of the things he says clearly he is planning a future with out his family.
I know when he has no one, he will start to see things differently and I think he knows that too. so here I sit , still in limbo.
I will say, I did actually get angry today, i slammed his truck door when he was dropping me off, it was more by accident, but non the less he did notice and made it a point to ask... I said "no, im not angry... " he seem to question that, but maybe its time he start to wonder what Im thinking...
I told him I wasnt ready to call it quits, and only when it truly brings me peace will I know my decision. he seem to agree with that, and he said we should wait at least til he gets moved before we decide anything...
He seems to bounce between sanity and alien behavior pretty quickly...
still in limbo...
m 41 h 44 d 17 (prev marriage) d 9 Never give up!!!!!
