Wife left

[CO1978]

This morning W showed up to house earlier than usual, due to snow. I was hoping it would give us a little more time together. She had her counseling last night, I asked her how it went, she said it went well. Then I asked if she was going to go again and she said yes. I didn't want to pry at all into what they discussed, and couldn't get a read on her expressions either so I left it at that. She said she was feeling really tired, so she was headed to bed. I remembered she had to cancel one of her subscriptions off my bank account so went into bedroom to remind her to do so. We then ended up talking some more there. I don't know how I resisted lying down in bed next to her. I am really head over heals in love with her, its terrible that it took her leaving for the fire inside to start burning again. We had another pretty good talk, I ended conversation with "well I'll let you get some sleep, have a great day!" She said you too. My 2 goals right now are no longer offering her anything (no money, no help of any kind, let her see how hard life is without me bailing her out from now on) and becoming best friends with her. I figure on the road to becoming best friends, she can see me as someone she would like to date and maybe we can start over with just dating and build from there. I will not initiate any of that until sometime in mid January (if I even initiate it then).