Like I have stated before, there are days that I am sure it is MLC and days where I wonder if I am just hoping it is MLC... most likely so I won't have to be accountable for my sortcomings.
First and foremost...
MLC or not...
You must be accountable for your shortcomings.
We all must be accountable for our shortcomings.
So don't think that MLC let's you off the hook for anything...
Funny thing...
I could have written alot of what you have written this afternoon.
I am the smart one. The one that people come to for answers.
I am kind and a giver. It is in my nature to nurture.
It is who I am. It feeds my soul.
However, it is also an easy scapegoat excuse for when I don't want to give to someone.
"I am always sacraficing...it's someone else's turn"
And it is an easy way to justify not doing for someone, when you want to punish without it looking like a punishment. Instead, it can come across as doing something for yourself...
It also allows us to step into the "victim" role very easily...
Are you a victim?
From your last post, it seems that you were victimized often during your life...
It also appears that is how you continue to see yourself...
For the moment, let's take a leap of faith and say that there will be no more wondering if it is MLC or not...
Let's say it is...banish that question from your mind...
What about you still needs to be worked on?
What about you do you want to change?
How can you begin to do that in your life, not within the context of your M?
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
