AC, The feelings you are describing are the exact same ones I am feeling, exactly, popping up at all hours, trying to stay involved but being sad, etc
The symptoms you are describing are clasic ones for depression, as my IC told me this week. Are you seeing an IC? Depression brought about by traumatic events, of which D is #2 on the list of life stressors, is completely normal. It can last for a good long time, and in our case, can definately be exacerbated by other factors, like the fact that this is holiday time. She told me to give it one more month, if after that time the symptoms have not significantly lessened, it might be time to take the next step which could involve short term meds/therapy.
Right now, the only thing we can do is take each hour as it comes, for me, some go faster and better than others. Just know AC, that everyone out there is pulling for you, someday, things will be better, hang in there!! All is not lost!!
m 54 XW 48 m 12 t 14 bomb 6-11 s 10-11 wife moved to other state 10-21-11 d 9-12
O GOD THY SEA IS SO GREAT AND MY BOAT IS SO SMALL!