Some days are tougher than others. This morning H called me to come lay down with him for a few minutes before he got up for work. No talking just laying there, with his arm around me. It made me sad on some levels but I miss my H. As it was getting closer to time to get up, he said "just two more minutes like this, I don't want to face it yet" So I said "face what" and he responded "reality, responsibility" I didn't say anything.
Today I have gotten a few emails and texts from him. I responded to the work related emails and that was it.
I probably shouldn't have gone in there this morning, but I wanted to and I guess on some level I thought he wanted to talk. After he accused me of flirting, he apologized the next morning and said "we'll talk tonight"
When last night came and went, he sent a text to me saying "I am not avoiding a talk, but enjoying the peace tonight. We can talk when the time is right"
His pattern is to try to smooth it over, be cute and never deal with it until the next argument. It's a pattern I need to break for me, whether he chooses to or not.
