I woke up this morning to a 50 degree day with a steady rain. Since my body hasn't recuperated from the last run and for safety's sake regarding the bike, I just did a 2 mile walk in the rain this morning. At least powering through the rain made me feel like I was getting some exercise.
My W texted me today while I was at work and asked if we could switch Tue. for Wed. for my S. I am skipping Ladies group on Tuesday night, but instead I made some tentative plans to meet up with a few guys from church at Starbucks. My Mom had said she would like to come down and have dinner with my S on Wednesday night. So I texted my W back and told her I wasn't sure how well it would work because I had plans on Tuesday night and had unconfirmed plans with my S for Wednesday night. She eventually texted back and said she would pick up S after work. I ended up talking to my Mom and she brought up the point of that I may need her to be flexible sometime. My Mom agreed to come down on Tuesday night and take S out to dinner while I did my thing. I texted my W back and let her know I may be able to switch after all. So I was somewhat accommodating after giving her the runaround. I wasn't changing my plans. That's part of my drama for the day.
The other part is she also texted me and let me know she used our credit card for purchases, that she would pay me back, and that she got her own card so it won't happen again. Guess it's past time to get her off those accounts.
I am just feeling very ambivalent tongiht for some reason. Like I just need to get out the way and let God do his thing. Feeling this need to back off from my W even more right now. She's making these other single women I meet more attractive, too.
No exercise today. I took the day off. I'll try to make up for it tomorrow. I promise.
I got up pretty late today. Most days, I've been able to get away with it. My S is pretty good about getting up a lot earlier than he needs to and gets ready for school. Today, though, he overslept. Uh-oh. We had to do the 10 minute drill to get him ready for school. But we made it!
Today was pretty much drama free. My favorite. My Mom came down tonight and took my S to dinner while I went out GAL'ing. I met up with 3 other guys from church at Starbucks. I had a good time. There was one guy I already knew there and met a couple new guys there. One of the guys was trying to place my name and figured out I was in the church program for the football party. I came home and hung out with my S for awhile playing some classic video games. Tonight was a good evening.
Man I love nights like that just chilling and playing video games with my D or by myself. I noticed that when I have fun with my D my W gets sad. Not sure why? But hey as long us we are having fun I say keep doing it. Have a great one JB.
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Thanks Rick! I know my S really enjoys it. I just don't want to do it all the time. I like to mix it up when I can - it was a decent variety last night, spending time with the guys at Starbucks and then spending time with my S.
that does sound nice -- relaxing and fun!! I was thinking about you today in this weather. It was in the 20's here and I wondered if it was about that where u are, and if you were exercising in the cold. I personally love the snow and always look forward to it. I think it's residual from being a kid and getting snow days. As a teacher, we get them too --even at college
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Really? I went to the University of Minnesota and in my four years there I got ONE, ONE freaking snow day... I feel shafted
Though I can't agree on the cold and exercise. I was really starting to enjoy my morning runs. But I'm finding when it's 18 degrees with a 10 degree wind chill... well... that's really not so fun. I'm thinking Santa needs to find me some thermal running pants or something.
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I wondered if it was about that where u are, and if you were exercising in the cold.
IS, it was in the 30s today. I just went for a 26 mile ride tonight, although it may have not been the best idea. Biking season is coming to a close though. It's going to be sporadic at best for awhile. I'll mix it up with a combination of running, hiking, and walking. I can't do a treadmill, either.
But I'm finding when it's 18 degrees with a 10 degree wind chill... well... that's really not so fun. I'm thinking Santa needs to find me some thermal running pants or something.
Brrr...at least you're powering through it. I think if you dress for it, it's not too bad. However, I know you have a lot colder weather than I do.
Today I'm just feeling detached. The ambivalence is continuing. Yeah, I have the sporadic pang of anxiety, but it comes and goes pretty quickly.
My W did come to pick up my S tonight. She was already at my house when I got home from work. At first, she really didn't seem to be in the best mood - she just seemed kind of down. I asked her a lot of question about her job and her move and she lightened up. Maybe the Christmas lights outside and the tree inside were getting to her a little bit. I managed to be pretty upbeat and positive when asking her about her move and new job. It turns out she's now not going to move until January.
She also picked up a Christmas tree while she was here. I brought it up from the basement for her and helped her get it into her car. We talked about Christmas gifts for my S. It was cold outside and she invited me to sit in the car while my S went in the house to get something. She had the radio tuned to a Christian station.
Since I have what looks like a busy weekend coming up with my S, I decided to try a long bike ride tonight. It was 33 degrees and dark when I started. It's rained here for the last couple of days. There was some residual water in a park I ride in as part of my neighborhood route. I decided to get my loops in the park out of the on the first pass of my route, because I knew the temperature would be dropping and the water draining off the soccer fields could possibly freeze. Guess what? I was right. On the fourth lap around the park, I slid and darn near ended my biking season immediately. Almost a hard lesson. Yikes!
Already had a bit of minor drama today. My W calls me this morning. She had to be somewhere at 9. She overslept and was running late to drop off S and get to work. Shse asked me if I would meet her at Lowe's. I just told her no this morning. I was actually still in bed, but she didn't know or have to know that. I apologized to her that I couldn't do it. She seemed a little bit miffed, but probably more stressed.
Oh well, I can't keep bailing her our. She has to take some responsibility.
Uh-oh. We had to do the 10 minute drill to get him ready for school. But we made it!