Val- I'm sorry you are having a rough time. This ride we're on definitely has some extreme ups and downs. I like the perspective WCF took as far as doing your best to remain in the present. Just think back to your own situation and how things and circumstances have changed from moment to moment, day to day, week to week.
When we get into a negative funk its easy for us to keep that paradigm going but the truth is we don't know what the immediate or long term future is going to bring.
Keep your head up and be happy with doing your best. You can only control you.
And as far as XMAS traditions go i can completely understand as I grew up in a simialr fashion.
Think about how awesome it is for what you are doing for those 15 kids and that this year will be a start to that tradition which I think is amazing.
