Four months since W packed up and moved 1500 miles away. She is clearly attempting to limit contact as much as possible. The lack of communication cuts deep, as we have always been best friends, and even in our extensive times apart, we kept in touch. I did talk to her last week, and definately got the impression that her depression is ongoing, and perhaps coming back strong - she say she is very lonely, needs someone to confide in, has no plans for the holidays, it is very dark where she is.....classic signs to me, who knows her well. Very frustated that I can do nothing to help - I send her notes, small care packages...just to let her know someone is out here, and perhaps she looks on that favorably, but I cannot tell.
My personal situation is still pretty low. Going to the gym alot, out with friends as much as possible, etc., but the alone time is pretty brutal. Tossing and turning at 4AM. Feeling rejected and dejected. Don't really talk about my sitch with friends anymore. I need to find a positive method of getting out of this hole I am in. Just does not seem to be an end in sight. Very tired of being bummed out all the time. Need to get some joy and fun time happening, to be sure.
Sometimes I feel like a broken record on this site, so thanks for listening. You guys have been a tremendous help to me, to be sure.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012
