MB - I have made my peace with it for the most part. We just need to settle in on actual dates. He will be out of school that week and we both want some of that time to spend with him.
Wtiki - She pretty much drilled it. I am grateful for that, though. I do well with brutal honesty in situations where I am uncertain. This one qualifies as such.
Regarding detachment - it goes against every natural grain in my being right now, but I see WHY it is necessary. As it stands already, I feel as if she has forgotten about me completely right now and going dark/dim only makes it worse. Notwithstanding, I am moving in that direction on faith alone. To the credit of DR and every other vet on this board, pleading, begging, crying, all of that did nothing. She is basically a cold wind right now and I am hoping that it warms one of these days. In the meantime, it would appear I have some introspection and changing to do.
You know, I was probably one of those people that gave a lot of lip service to "I love my wife and family" - but never LIVED it like I should. Now that I am on the brink of losing it, I have become PROFOUNDLY aware of how much I love them and how much they are the wind in my sail. If I am ever given a second bite at the apple I will never take anything for granted again.
