TIMES THAT TRY MENS SOULS

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Gunny:
I wrestle with this idea constantly. Am told to show the old, fun loving, confident AC. Let W know you are moving forward. I do fear that she will think that I think I am better off without her. My IC asked me if W asked me how I am doing when we talk, and the answer is mostly no. W is very self absorbed, and has been for quite a while. She does not contact me very often, so I have started to contact her occasionally with small care packages and texts...just to let her know someone out there cares for her. I know she is very isolated, so I want to touch base with her occasionally.

She did tell me last week that she finds talking to me to be a bit awkward due to the fact we are splitting. Told me she needed to find someone else to confide in besides me - a statement that cut pretty deep. W knows she is hurting me, which is why I think she does not want to contact me very much, but she really has no idea as to the extent.

I do think that having that conversation over the phone would be difficult. I have thought of composing a letter, but I am waiting for the right time, which I guess will be when it is firm she is never returning here, and that might be months away. Don't know when or if I will see her again.

Would I relocate? Absolutely, but wondering about such a possibility is a slippery slope that could drag both you and I down severly. JMHO