I wish I had read that sooner Mr. Bond. I had a bit of a backslide and I regret it, which is probably why I am not sleeping right now. I talked to him about it and he said "flirting is one thing but not admitting it is another" and I said "well if it came off as that, it was never my intention. I am just a touchy person with everyone (which is true). My intention was not to flirt with him at all. I have wanted our M and only our M."

He was very angry and I then said "you have women friends of ours who text you and talk to you on the phone too, I don't say anything about R and J." He said "i don't flirt with them in front of you.

So here is where I really blew it, one of the women I mentioned lives on the other coast and they had a business conference that they all went to a few months ago. I mentioned that he went there and I trusted him and he then proceeds to tell me 'and we have another one coming up in February'

That could be to make me worry, wonder or get back at me OR there is reason to worry, wonder.

I have seen zero proof of OW this time around. It could mean that he is just better at hiding it now or there really is no OW
I don't want to dwell on that and borrow trouble, but I don't want to be an idiot either.

So when he brought it back to me and flirting he said "you are a beautiful woman, you have no idea what these men are like. I don't trust this guy, I thought I did but I don't think I do anymore" (this was someone he was friends with through business and he actually introduced me to him)

It's a double standard, it was ok for women to text him, he even goes to lunch with all women at work. But one guy texts me and it is WW111

I really need some advice here. I am sleepless and at a loss. I just don't want to make it worse.


-Autumn