Upside Down

[Coyote]

"...Hard to hold any anger, but unfortunately it's replaced with something not so good."

You can get angry about the situation. You can get angry about taxes. You can even get a little cheesed off at W's attitude if it crosses a line. But with W is in this...'stuff' don't point your anger at her, you'll be sorry if you do. Redirect it elsewhere. Find another healthy outlet. (For me I get on my eliptical machine and give er'. If something's cheesin' me off I growl about it while huffin', puffin', and swearin'. In the birthday suit even if it's bad.)

"She woke up sick today, flu or something. I just wanted to make her feel better. Some kid activities and some things I needed to do, but I made sure she had what she needed and I kept the kids out of her hair."

Awesome, nothing wrong with this.

"Her moving on and doing whatever she wants, yet I'm able to take care of her, the kids whatever is needed, without a worry from her. Not like I'd ignore her if she was sick, but maybe I don't need to be so nice?"

Ah, we get to the point. Yes, try to be nice when you can. I know, I know, it doesn't feel natural. This is not an easy one. The natural thing would be to blast away, no holds barred and to let her have it! A part of her might even be expecting this. Resist, blow elsewhere or again, you'll be sorry if you give in...

What a turn around for W, when, after treating you like crap you treat her with respect and dignity. This, gets a WAS thinkin'. Down the road, if not already, she'll be thinking of this. You being a soft place for her to land on when everything else was falling apart. Remember this. Helps prop up your own dignity and self respect too. Helps knowing you've done pretty much the best you can.

"she thanked me, this evening she didn't seem so appreciative, hard to read results of my efforts when she's also sick."

Most of the time you don't see this until later. At that, mostly in very little things here and there. Get yourself a beer or whatever instead for now. Low and slow.