You are doing so well! Don't let a kid's BD party get you. I know what you mean about little things triggering a lot of emotion, specially when you are so drained from the every day grind. I like you, adore being with my kids, but it is very demanding to be with them as a single parent - all the time. I sure have more appreciation for stay at home moms. And I also see it as an opportunity to practice my patience skills (key for DBing, parenting and my personal issues with anger).
In my case, I am trying to enjoy every moment I have with them, knowing that eventually I will need to go back to work and seeing how fast they grow up. My baby is no longer a newborn, he is 4 months old! Sometimes I stare at my little angel and wonder how H is missing such precious moments that will never come back... I get sad and then I snap out of it - how? I just think: his loss!
So for now, it's all about me and the kids, just like you. We are truly blessed to be able to focus our energy and affection on our children - they need us so much. We are fortunate to be able (and sane enough) to give them the love they so much need right now.
I am glad your husband is slowly coming around and showing changes. Keep up the positive attitude. I believe that it always shows and brings on more positive things to your life. If it doesn't bring the M back, at least he is improving his interactions with his girls.
I will come back and continue to follow you. Your attitude is a source of inspiration!
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
