The "it was also to show him" is a remnant of when I was DBing...the whole "let them see you have moved on."

But since I know logically that he and I really aren't on the same page and have not been in awhile (if I'm honest about the marriage, we've talked about this before) then that part really shouldn't be a factor anymore. I get why that bugs you :-)

M45
Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11
Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy
"Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying