Curve balls? Heck, I don't even play softball!!!

[In_Shock]

yeah, JB I really would rather NOT have her at the house at this point. It's NOT good for my mental health. All the OW drama, texting, running off to meet, is in my face and I simply cannot take it emotionally any more. How some of the people on here do that----I am amazed.

I really think we need separation if we are EVER to work things out. We need desperately to get back to a point where we do 'like' each other..... I really don't like what W has become in the past few months.....I love her--- I love and really like the person I met and spent many years with. THIS person I'm living with, the alien.....needs to GO. Like I said, the only thing I worry about is S's adjustment to it all.

I have hope that perhaps we can start over with a totally new R one day, but if we stay in the same house much longer..... I simply cannot take the heartbreak in my face daily..... I am not cut out for it.

But, believe it or not, I really have learned some valuable lessons and really have done much better overall. Baby steps in my growth....but growth.