----- I totally know what you mean. If W was leaving/decided to 'find herself' etc... that is one thing. I was ok until I found out that within a couple of weeks from the bomb, she was connecting with someone else, and it got physical within a few weeks...THEN i began to really feel it. I thought at first, well, this will be ok. W will work on herself. I will work on myself. We'll come through this. Turns out her working on herself was just a big old excuse to pursue this OW she'd been having EA with.... -----..it's a constant reminder that I don't matter to her anymore and I need to definitely find my own path. I'm getting there. Detachment is key and there are times when I THINK you get it...but then I'll read some of your words (below) and I wonder, "wow, Does IS get it?"
Last night we were talking about practical things like S, his xmas play, money things, etc... W told me she is ambivalent about me -- but when pushed to think about it, Why, dear God, are you "pushing" her to think about it some MORE???? Why is this talk happening at all? Why are you getting her to cement her negatives?
You truly think she'll slap her forehead and say "OMG, good question IS! I never thought of that. You are right, and I am nuts. I will come back to you now!"....???
Stop this already...please, you must not have ANY of these discussions again....
says she just doesn't 'like' me and doesn't even want to be friends . Hmmm... 13 years and I'm tossed aside like some garbage. I validated. I listened. I agreed that -- yes, I know, I understand why you feel that way.
Now I am slapping MY forehead! Why not leave the room???
BUT I DON'T really for some of it. The ANGER - the dislike--- I'm being left. I'm ANGRY, SAD, HURT and losing my family with no choice. And SHE's angry/doesn't like me, etc..... WTH??
Just rambling myself. Got to go to class right now. Thought I'd check in for a minute. Feeling ok i guess....I keep thinking of the old, was it Ramones? song --- I wanna be sedated....!!! Until perhaps next June or July????
sigh....
IS, you deserve better. Stop acting like you don't. Guess I made my point but truly I thought you were past this.
You only have her around a few more weeks. Make the most of them.
DIVORCE BUST for real!
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
