My new job is going very well. It really has been a life changing thing for me not to have to worry all the time where my next paycheck is coming from.
It has enabled me to focus on the important things in my life and set some new goals.
W and I have agreed to an uncontested D and I filed those papers two weeks ago.
We are supposed to talk about her executing those today. Who knows if she'll follow through but at this point since the papers are filed she doesn't have a choice.
She still has a lot of crazy in her backpack.
It is with a sense of empathy that I leave her to her choices and also sadness to watch someone you love who desires to be better, invested in a better life and a marriage
...and can't.
I have learned and know this:
Never again will I make excuses for someone who is not commiting to a relationship. Never again will accept someone investing less than I am investing myself. Never again will I accept someone in my life who is not evenly yoked to me.
If I do I will create something less than I value in myself.
And as I stand here today that ground has has been hard faught, and the price too dear, to place it in the hands of someone who does not value it as I do.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
