Right now I feel like my defenses are still up, I actually have difficulty dropping it so that I can connect with him.
Do Not sabotage this w/your doubt or your isolation. Open your heart to him. (Remember that You are married.)
Can he hurt you again? YES...and the reverse is true too.
We all risk it every time we let our guard down.
But keeping our guard up - keeps others from reaching us - and then we never connect. Never connecting means we never feel truly intimate, truly loved, truly known...
That's a guaranteed lose lose. Why choose that?
It's NOT safer...it only appears that way.
I suddenly realized just how much I have changed.
I also suddenly feel like I don't know how to interact with him any longer.
Be Here Now...no futurizing, no history reviews. Stay in the present. LIVE.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
