Thanks for the reply Snodderly- I have gleaned so much information from reading (and re-reading) your posts!
He has been talking about leaving since September. Recently he said he wanted to me tell him how much he has to give me to maintain the household, so he knows how much he has to spend on an apartment- to which I told him NO! Thing is, I feel like I walk around on eggshells so often and it would be more peaceful if he did leave. But that is not what I want. This is his journey- he needs to grow up and take it. I just need to continue on my path.
On a positive note- I am taking my kids on a cruise the week before Christmas so we have that to look forward to!
Me:37 H:44 M:13 T:17 S:8 D:9 H living in spare bedroom since 9/5/11