Busto - Today, I sent my W 3 dozen flowers and some chocolates and got a mariachi band to go to her work and sing her Candela and I am filing her toenails at her lunch hour and brought her some sushi I rolled for her. Then I texted her a few times and when she didn't respond I called her and cried some and told her FROM MY HEART that I had changed. I e-mailed her a list of 500 doctors and massage therapists she could look into for herself and told her I could drive her to any appointments. I offered to scrub her toilet (with a toothbrush like she likes) and said I didn't mind canceling my plans with my friends cause she was worth it. She patted me on the back and said she felt closer to me.

I'm a little tired, not sure why I feel dissatisfied. Maybe I should try harder. Let her know how I *REALLY* feel. That I will do *ANYTHING* for her.

Rick - ouch! Yeah, that's me to a T. Damn!

Busto - see the msg and video I posted recently on 2tp's page.

Rick - I did. Very helpful. I am definitely already in the ditch and dead.

Busto - I didn't personally date, but I did do social things in groups that included members of the opposite sex.

If she says something, you can simply say, I am a little confused. You fired me as your H. But if I'm hearing you right, you sound concerned/angry/worried about what I am up to?" and then just listen

Rick - that's sound advice and I will really have to be strong to stick to it because my W looks at everything with an eye towards proving deception. That's her problem now and has been all along. It's one of her big issues with her psychiatrist. She is so on the edge in this way. Recently whe I texted her about an issue I said "Bye" to her at the end of the text and she immediately texted me back and called me thinking I meant bye as in goodbye for good. On one hand I could take that as a sign that she still cares but in reality it is probably what 2TP thought. That she is only concerned for purely selfish reasons.

Hey. Thank you so much for your reply. It measn a lot coming from someone who has actually R by using DB & LRT.

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H 53, W 45
3 sons (24,21,13)
M = 24 yrs
bombed March 2011
live together, separate rooms