It is sad that she can't let go despite having "moving on". Some people just hold grudges and there is nothing you can do but hand them over to God and pray they forgive as God has forgiven *them* as well.
As long as it's all my fault, then none of it is her fault...even her infidelities during our marriage! Jesus Himself couldn't tell her that she did anything wrong!
It was a big step to get to where I truly forgave myself for the things I had done wrong...took me 3 years to get there. But I was able to finally do it and mean it! Now I'm strugging with 'letting go' of my painful past. I'm working hard to 'get there' like I did with my own forgiveness. I so want to let go of it, and move on to a better things. I do feel bad about my wrongdoings...but she doesn't feel bad about anything she's done. I'm simply tired of hurting.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
