Wife just told me doesn't want to be married

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I kind of get the feeling that I am holding onto a pipe dream.
I went up to my home this morning to pick up my daughter and bring her to work with me today. The woman that watches my daughter her little girl has a fever so better safe then sorry. I get a little extra time with my little girl.

While at my home I noticed my last picture that was in my old bedroom was taken down. This sort of gave me hope. I know this is, I guess in a way a set back I am not sure since there is nothing going on. The only pic of me up anywhere in my home is with my W and 3 friends from a wedding we were at last summer, as well as a family portrait she is taking down when she gets a new pic to put in there of kids.

She also went with kids and got a Christmas tree without me this past Friday. How did she get it home? She asked two of the drunks to go pick it up for her. Which they did happily.

This has been such a crappy year. I really can't even think of anything good coming out of it for us or for people we know. A friend of ours just lost his grandmother and just found out his father was diagnosed with prostate cancer. This is the couple that lost the baby over the summer. Such a bad year all around. I am still waiting to get a copy of the separation agreement to take to my attorney. Nothing as of yet.

Like I said in the previous post I picked up DR yesterday and didn't get a chance to look through it yet. When looking for it in the book store I saw a few other books for reconciliation, that gave me a little hope. I just don't know what to feel.
Am I holding onto something that is not there anymore trying to restart a fire with a damp match and no kindling?

If it works out then we will be stronger then before and nothing can come between this and that is what I want.

Still waiting to hear back from the jobs I sent my resume too. Keeping fingers crossed. If I can get a new job then that is one step in the right direction.