Thanks everyone - it feels a lot less lonely with your feeback. This past week was a black one for me, but doing better tonite. The hardest part has been accepting how limited my influence is over a situation I used to be entirely in charge of. Like where my children slept. This weekend my D6 announce happily that as of tonite they are moved in with the OM. Some loser my wife barely knows, and the OMs roommate. Talk about a sitch ripe for problems - it's like every parent's worst nightmare. But all I can do is hope they are safe, and hope the legal system actually works for me next week. I'm tapping into a level of Buddism I didn't know I had in me.
As you all can see from my screen name, I am generally hopeful for reconcilliation, to the bemusement of most of the people I've confided in. (OK, all of them.) Last week's news really dealt me a blow, but that optimism is creeping back. I know my road is long, and it starts with me investing in me. But I barely crept out of the hole this week - as bad, maybe worse, than first hearing the D-word. Thinking of my babies sleeping in that stranger's house.....
Cadet, great feedback about control, lots to digest there. Antlers, thanks for reminding me to take care of me. Easy to forget sometimes.
Me 46 W 36 D6 (son) & D2 (daughter) M 5 T 8 handed Div papers 6/16/11 OM confirmed 10/31/11