Okay friends, after I posted last I backslid again. H was pressuring me to sign the papers again saying he hired his own lawyer and that if i didnt sign the papers he would take legal action against me. He also started complaining about having to pay me so much money and i lashed out at him by saying if he didnt want to pay he could sign his rights away and i would do it myself. That really pissed him off and he called me a bitch. I appologized and said i didnt mean that. I told him that he is making this harder on everyone. And that he needs to be civil. He said he would try. Since thenI'm comming to gripps with my emotions I guess. I have decided to make a mental point to not get involved with his families drama. I'm not going to give it anymore of my time. Also, I'm really going to try not to let H put me on his up/down roller coaster ride. OH he's trying though. H sent me a message reminding me that he was comming to see our son on wensday for 2 hours. I said thats fine but I wouldnt Anyway, so then he starts accousing me of silly things like letting our son sleep w/ a pillow when he is to young and a bunch of other ridiculous stuff. I set him straight and told him if he has concerns he could talk to me w/0 accousing / going off on me. He didnt really respond. Then one peaceful day w/o communication. Then today he texts me saying whats Son doing? Really? Well lets see.... playing w/ his toys? Why does he try to "talk" almost every day. I didnt answer. I have been keeping busy. Today I went to church, then to the store, then to our friends house to watch the game( Go Packers!) Our mutual friend is pretty much disgusted w/ my H. He has known him since he was like 6 and me since I was 13. He says I should date again. I told him im not ready and I still loved H. And was hoping maybe he'd come back. Friend said maybe he would if I dated someone else. I laughed it off. I really helps me when i get so much advice off here. Mishka thats awsome you guys are back together. It does help to hear that. H has been a cop for about 3 years.
