Still working hard on the DB plan, but not seeing just a whole lot of progress. Well, at least major progress anyway. I am making some small steps that help to keep it going.
On Friday our dog had surgery. It's our older dog and I was very concerned about the outcome. I had told my EW about the surgery and she said she wanted to be there when I dropped the dog off. I said sure that's fine. She said she'd be there at around 7:30 and I got there then. Turns out she overslept (i think she stayed out late the night before). She got there about 8:20 and we took the dog in, hugged her and sent her back to surgery. As we left I told her I knew this was hard on her and asked if there was anything I could do for her. She said she didn't think so but would let me know if I could. Anyway, I guess she had a stomach virus or food poisoning or something and says she threw up all day. Thus, she wasn't able to be there when I picked the dog up. Something she had said she'd do. I understand it's because she was sick, but even that morning she changed to "I'll be there if I can." After our big fight about the dogs, she's asked to see them exactly one time. And I'm the one getting trashed back then b/c I wouldn't let her see them. Anyway, I've told her she can see them anytime she likes and I'll even leave if she wants. It's sad that she seems to be leaving them behind too. We have had some good conversations lately and when we talk she seems to be interested. At least, interested in talking to me, not so much in what I'm doing or where I'm going, etc.
One thing that strikes me as a little odd....when we have a nice TM conversation pretty much right after that she posts something on FB about how she loves the new boyfriend. Just weird i guess. It's like she's trying to convince herself or something. I don't mean to analyze her actions, but that's how it seems anyway.
Another thing that I thought about last night....it's amazing to me how pretty much every guy she meets (this is the 2nd one she's left me for) falls head over heels for her. Of course, I did that too and still feel that way about her. But she also falls hard for them. The first time she left she thought she loved the guy she was having an EA with and now she says the same about the new OM. I wish she'd just come back.
