Do I stay or do I go?

[anyhope]

Hello, h keeps calling several times a day, trying to spend time with me with some luck. Looks like he wants to adopt his "let's just forget about what happened and move on" fixing method as he always does, but not addressing things doesn't mean they never happened, especially this time.
He called me lots of times today, asked again to reconcile.. Every time he does the time or place is not appropriate to discuss it, but this time I managed to tell him that if he really wants to he should finish whatever he has going on with ow, but I also told him its not something I ask of him to do as I'm not sure I want to reconcile, it's just something that must be done in order for me to even consider and until that happens he should just stop askingme because it's annoying.

I don't feel like I have the strength or the will to reconcile right now anyhow... But I should add that for the first time this whole mess started the other night I was reading some posts in the piecing section.. I could be there if I wanted to.. But right now I cant, I'm not reay and I don't think he is. I also read on here somewhere that men in mlc demand to have options and maybe he's just thorn right now because I'm not as available as he'd like me to..

But despite that all I've ordered the book his needs her needs and I'm planning on giving it to him for Christmas after I've read it.. Seems like a great book and can't wait to get it.