Over a month. Must be some kind of hurtle. More than anything I'm angry. And I have to say, it feels a whole lot better. I've been db'ing as best I can though not perfectly and there have been some backslides into R and why talks but im getting better. What's most interesting though is that it actually feels better to be angry than all the anxiety and pain. I'm being nice, enjoying the kids and trying to look forward. I'm strongly considering the mwd intensives but not sure I can get her to go but ill try soon when the timing is right. In one of my backslides I had to tell her to stop treating me like you know what, especially in front of the kids. It seems to have worked because she's been pretty nice to me the last day or so. (Turns out that's hard to - just want to hold her) . For now, I'm holding on to a little anger, db'ing, holding out some hope for getting her to a meeting. Thanks everyone.
