Thanks for the input and suggestions, it is much appreciated.
I have been thinking about w all day and wondering when she is going to call and this is really bothering me. I know I need to stop and do a better job of detaching.
I also have scheduled a happy hour w/ a couple friends since it's my w's night to have the boys but I am already feeling guilty about not seeing them and maybe not having dinner with them. I'm tired of wavering and thinking about the effect and the reaction of my w to everything I do.