Thank you for the kind words and for taking the time to read apart of my story. Yes I have the book and have & will continue reading it. As well, I am working on connecting with God or my higher power. My wife and I have been through so much together and of course I made the key mistakes.. drinking, OW and so now. But I've been home or back for awhile now, but we just haven't really connected again. She has never dealt with the forgivness, angry, and her pain of me leaving her. When I came back home.. life just seemed to go on..Yes she was crushed, hurt and angry, but we never dealt with it together. We have had a lot of good times over the last couple of years, but never really connected the way we should have. I wish I could clearly explain our whole relationship,on this one post, but I guess it only matters about today. I know we love eachother, we have 2 great kids, I am a good provider, we have a great house, I have a great job, all is good, but I cheated 5 years ago and didnt come home once I was caught, I stay with OW on and off for a year. Then I begged wife to take me back and over the last 4 years, that I have been home, I've been sober, a great dad, loving husband , I mean.. I've done everythong right..but now W wants her space and that means I have to go. This time of year is a big trigger for her too.. this is the time of year that I was caught with OW.
