First post, words of wisdom needed

[sunshine76]

Journal: Well on a positive note being kicked to the curb so to speak is the best diet that I have ever been on. Typically I eat when I am depressed, but this whole seperation thing is a great appetite suppresant so if nothing else comes out of all of this hopefully I can get down to my goal weight which I have unsuccessfully trying to do for years now. I am also trying to quit smoking, but kicking that habit is much more challenging. Oh well, one step at a time.

I am bracing for spending the holidays alone. I am staying here to watch the dogs while my ex goes to Utah to visit family. I will be so glad when the holidays are over!!!!

It is very strange to be grieving for someone that is right in front of your face. It almost seems cruel to put yourself through this kind of torture. I have found that it really is helping to get out of the house ( I am at a coffee shop right now). I am still putting on a smile and being friendly when I see my partner at the house but I sure as heck don't feel like it.

If I didn't know better I would have thought that my partner had read DB'n (she wouldn't read a self-help book to save her life). She is much better at doing a 180 than I am. She is upbeat, friendly takes the dogs out all day on the weekends... I guess she is not really doing a 180 she is just happy to be seperated. So basically when we are around each other we are very cheerful even though we both know that there is so much underlying tension.

Well I hope everyone out there is able to find atleast a little bit of peace and happiness in their lives. Tomorrow is a new day...