new to this..

[learning2listen]

I am afraid if i show how angry i am i will push h away forever.. then again I am afraid if i let him control all of my feelings he will walk all over me..

I know i need to let go. I know if i dont just move forward with me i will go crazy trying to figure him out..

taking a class would be a good idea, I have also thought about finding a good hobby, something that would just keep me busy.. but right now between the girls and my two jobs i dont know when to do it...

I am going to just take deep breaths and hope that I find some peace in my own life.. its really all i can do.