CO, CO, CO, here's your 2x4. No pleading, it makes you look pathetic and you are not, by any means!
You are doing an amazing thing, looking hard at yourself and making life-changing improvements.
What did you expect? You show her your potential diagnosis and she apologizes for everything, and everything's all better? There is no other way your story could have gone than the way it did. "Too little, too late" is straight from the script and you should have expected it. Brace yourself for it next time because you'll hear it some more. It is her convincing herself.
Have a response ready that is truthful. I can tell from what you've said in past posts that you have given up drinking not just for her but for your child. That won't change. If she acts nice or mean that will have zero effect on you drinking because you gave it up for a much bigger reason than her.
Getting treated for or at least understanding better your mental health is again, something you should do for your own future and all the people around you, whether she's there or not.
Keep making those necessary improvements. You know she sees them. It doesn't matter what she says about them.
This hurts and s*cks and you feel awful but keep your strength up. Get whatever support it takes to keep off drinking - that is SO great and you are to be admired. If you accomplish this and more, and become a better communicator, a better parent, well, if she doesn't come back she's a fool. But do it for you.
Cry when she's not looking and be your amazing strong improving self when she is. Take care, Adinva
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
