Wife left

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I just hit rock bottom again. Besides yesterday her moving pretty much everything of hers out (the rest must be on the next trip) today W came over to drop S off before she went to work. I discussed with her what the IC and I discussed with me possibly having "Soft Bipolar" Disorder. We went over the symptoms and she agreed with them. I asked her if she could look over the book he gave me to see if she could see more, since she knows me better than anyone, she was slow to, but agreed. I then told her about the another thing the IC and I discussed, and I told her I was an alcoholic. I apologized for the damage it caused us. She began crying, and that led to her saying its too late. She said its over, she wasn't coming back, she didn't love me anymore. She had plenty of time to think, she lost so much weight and has been stressed over it. I of coarse broke down, pleaded that we could be a family again, and that I loved her. She said she knew I was changing, but its too late. She said she wanted to go to counseling a long time ago, and threatened divorce, but I never listened. The only reason she went on vacation was because she didn't want to waste the money. I hugged her and kissed her on the neck and kept pleading, she walked out. After she left, I have to admit I cried like never before.