Strange how, now the storm is calming down... I'm falling apart.
I shouldn't be falling apart, right?
It's not strange at all.
When the storm is raging, that is when our defenses are their strongest.
And...if your husband is showing signs of coming around, wanting to be around you, talking, communicating...well those defenses don't serve you if you are trying to open that door wider. So a few but not all of those defenses should come down, leaving you vulnerable; as you should be.
The other part of why this is not strange.
You have bottled up alot, you have swallowed alot to get here. Pride, hurt, anger, ego...you name it. IT doesn't go away just because you swallowed it, hid it away... You need to find an outlet for it releases. The drive into the woods and letting yourself breakdown seems like a good release.
You'll make it through.
You're too strong not too.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
