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[learning2listen]

25,mish, and grace...
Thank you all for your input... I am in such a dark place these days I almost feel fake...

I put a smile on my face for my kids, but I am not ok.. I am so confused lost and disappointed..in myself and my h

I wish i could get angry put when I start to get there i pull back..

I do not want to file for D, at this point it doesnt matter if I do or dont, but I dont want to becaue I know it isnt what I want.
i know i need to just let things be right now. i just wish I could take what my h has said and live with it, but he speaks in mixed signals...

I have never been so lost and hurt in my life, i just wish for happiness, with or without him I wish I could find the women I know I am.. I have been in such pain for what seems like so long and even breathing hurts.