I'm sorry to complicate things by moving my topic over to this question thread:

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2198717#Post2198717

It pretty much outlines what has been going on with me. But for now I'll try to keep everything in one thread. Sorry - moderators!

I need to update. I can't sleep. Having anxiety attacks.