interesting conversation tonight for me not to focus too much on the future about where i'll live or where she'll live etc. she said that it was hard because she wanted to hug me. eventually we were in the kitchen looking at pictures of my son from school to figure out which ones to buy and i put my hand on her shoulder and left it there for a moment. she sighed and turned and put her arms around me and we hugged for about 4 mins. it was nice, really nice. i haven't had an affectionate touch in nearly 10 months so i'm savoring it, as brief as it was and as much as i may read into it.
