Wife just told me doesn't want to be married

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had my therapy tonight and this time we spoke about my feelings. Well once he said it everything came up. Anger at myself for not paying attention to my w. Anger at her for the om as well as not fighting for us. Sad that we have to go through this we were really good together. Sad that we now have daddys house mommys house. Upset that my wife started decorating for xmas and i am not there. I might not even be there xmas morning to see my kids open the presents we got for them.

Alot came out how i want to break the om in half. If on a drunken stooper he harms her or my kids i will go after him. When hw is there my w doesn't drink a lot. I did find out that this past weekend she curved her drinking he didn't though. My neighbor said he gets dumber the more drunk he gets and he belches outloud. My w just sits and stares i think the enfatuation is wearing.

Oh well felt like i needed to get that out on here as well. My therapist also asked me about dating and my thoughts on that. I have a profile on match.com just not active. I can't get in touch with anyone yet. I have looked at the matches that i get emailed and i am amazed that all the women being sent to me are divorced.
Am i stupid to be holding onto hope? I hope not and wish one day to reconcile. As of now the separation agreement is still being written up.