that's possible however i have the feeling that she's told me over these many years and yet somehow i wasn't able to connect the dots or wasn't motivated to do so...i'm not sure. perhaps i'm just blaming myself out of habit...though i've been listening to her saying a few things but, to me, they aren't really accurate.
for instance, when she gets into an argument with someone she wants/expects my defense of her. while that makes sense to me if anything were to get physical it doesn't make a lot of sense to me for me to interject into an argument between her and another woman that we know. she is quite capable of holding her own in those things but she feels that my not doing so means i won't defend her.
i've been working really hard to be able to change my behavior with regards to when she cries...coming to her instead of letting her be, as i've preferred most often. hard to do that now, of course.
she said that she won't let anyone have access to her again. i'm not entirely sure what it means but she said the same to me in "the email" that she can't let me have access to her. i suppose that's a particular term that has a meaning that i'm just unaware of.
her birthday is Friday and my son is looking forward to it. i'm glad that i'll get to be here on Friday to celebrate it with her though she said there is nothing to celebrate. *sigh*
