I am new to this site and would like to share my story. It is a long one but I will get to the point, as best as I can. I've been with my wife for 17 yrs. Married 13 yrs, dated 4yrs, 1 son 7yrs old and 1 girl 9yrs old. I have done my share of damage,I drank too much ( haven't drank in 4 yrs) As well, I was caught with an OW 1 month after my son was born. After my wife found me w/ the ow, I did not come home. I stay with OW for a 1.5 yrs. My wife begged me to come home, but I just was running wild. BUT then something woke me up on Xmas morning and came over me, so I left the OW and headed to my mom's (who lives 7 mins from my house). Wife would not let me back in the house. I cleaned up my act and started to re-engauge with kids and was trying to get back home. After about 3 months, my wife told me to come home. I have been home now for about 4 yrs and we really look like a family on the outside. My wife is so beautiful and our kids are the best ( in my eyes) but she has not forgiven me and we never really came together. I have tried everything, but we just haven't come together. We just went to Disney in FLA, and it was great.I asked her " babe are you ok / are you really happy) She replied "Iam good Josh .. I love you"... But now my wife has asked me to leave and she wants to get seperated. We have lived together and acted like a family for the last 4 yrs.. trying to come together, but hasnt worked for her . 2 weeks ago she went out for the day with a bunch on older women ( they go every year),some are divorced without kids and some are just alone. She changed after that day. She now is so mad and has been going out until 12 midnite or 1am nite after nite. She would go out with our freinds wives once in awhile, but now she is just gone. She said she wants me to leave and live apart seperated. I am crushed.. I am a great provider, changed and I believe a great husband ( not perfect) and my kids and I are best freinds. I am lost AGAIN and need some help .. do I go and see what happens or do I stay and fight for my family
