Maybe I am having a particularly weak moment right now, but it all seems so bleak – she has shown no signs of wanting to work on R or reconcile at all. I am doing my best to stay positive, hopeful and take care of myself – but it is becoming increasingly difficult in the absence of any kind of positive response from W.
Given the lack of contact and communication that we have, I am doing LRT/going dark on nothing but blind faith and the hope that it might be effective. It seems like “going dark” is exactly what she wants me to do right now – seems like she could care less if she hears from me or not. In fact, I would go as far as to say she would prefer not to see me at all at this point. It is as if she has no memory of anything GOOD between us at all and I am the center piece of her discontent. I am merely the father of her son right now.
Need to stay strong and maintain PMA, but I am struggling…..guess I just need encouragement and some belief that my situation is capable of being pulled back from the cliff.
Crimson
Given how you think she feels right now, you know it wouldn't be any more productive to be in her face, pursuing her. You're doing the best thing you can do, keep it up. Not for her but for you. Hang in there!
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
