First post, words of wisdom needed

[sunshine76]

Thank you techguy! I love your reference about budhism and losing desire. I am definetely not there yet but I am trying to fake it until I make it.

I truly want to make permanent positive changes in my life. It finally clicked that happiness is a choice and that I can make a conscious decision to be happy. I'm not going to lie, it's not easy but I am taking babysteps and learning.

I was thinking about what made my partner fall in love with me and I came to the realization that it was because I would do small quirky things that would make her smile and let her know that I was thinking of her. So I have decided to try doing a few things like that for her and see how she responds.

Today she sent me a picture because she got home from working out and our dog had gotten into the trash and it was all over the place. The worst thing that our dog did was to eat her red vine candy. So today I bought her red vines, used a blank sheet of paper as rapping paper and drew a funny picture on the front. I put it under her windshield wiper while she was at work so she would find it before coming home. I than made sure that I was not at home when she got there. She sent me a text thanking me so much and when I got home she was laughing and said that what I did, "was sweet." I simply smiled and said that I was glad she liked it and then I went upstairs.

I am not getting my hopes up and I am staying away as much as possible, but I just want to make her smile.

I'm not sure if I should have done this or not, but it seems like if I got a positive response than it was the right thing to do, but at this point in my life I don't know whether to scratch my watch or wind my butt (quote from steel magnolia's).

Thanks again I will keep updating daily.