Too late?

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Actually, in my other thread (surprised no one has yelled at me yet)...I'm debating going more LRT on my H. He has really crushed me by planning a weekend trip with OW.

I think I have shown him a more passionate side of me and it may be the time now to show him that I have respect for myself and am not going to keep doing sexual things with him while he is pursuing OW. Maybe there's a way to say I'd like to be intimate with him, but I can't... I don't want to share him. I said that to him once before (after one of our interludes) and he held me close.

Frankly, I guess I'm not sure if he really wants me or desires me...it's not like he's making moves on me during the day. This could all be happening late at night just because he's horny for OW and she isn't around. The night he said, "I want you"...my sad first reaction was to ask, "Do you know it's me, your wife?" (I didn't and went along with the passion)

I'm in a funk tonight so maybe I'll change my mind...I guess the reality is I may be thinking things are working with H but he's in such a crazy place mentally...I may not really know what's going on with him.

My self esteem is actually pretty good...so don't think I'm feeling totally insecure. I think I need to try to see if H will miss me or have any second thoughts.

However, this all feels pretty impossible if H really likes the OW and things are still pretty new between them. Maybe I also need to detach to start preparing myself for the worst.