A Bklyn tale

[BklynMom]

Thks SIAS and Ad, it helps to know I am not alone out here.

H called tonight to say good night to the girls and mentioned that he called last night as well, guess we didnt hear the phone. Anyway 2 nights in a row is a big change. I think it goes in the positive column especially since he had recieved the kind email I sent him the day before & he still called. Previously when I have sent nice emails or messages he follows up with something like "dont you get it - its over, I'm done!"

I am trying to keep my thoughts away from the negatives but I find myself going there. It feels like his family spoke to him over the weekend about being a good Dad and he is calling to prove to them that he is a good Dad.

I need to remember that if he does start to call regularly this is MY opportunitity to show him my changes. Even though I know my changes are pronounced we have seen each other for only max 30 minutes every other week since Labor Day

I need to prove that my changes are real! I need to prove that my changes are real! I need to prove that my changes are real!

Its nice to find a few minutes to write before I pass out. Being at home with the girls is tough much tougher then when I was working. Thank goodness D3 goes to preschool 3 days a week cause it is mayhem when its raining and they are both home all day. How do woman do this and not lose their mind??