Youngster Questions Reality, WAW Moves On...

[westcoastfella]

I'll try to reply to you guys separately to keep my replies short. I really appreciate that you both took the time to comb through that post. I know it was a monster in length, but I wanted to be sure to get the dialogue in detail so I could get some accurate feedback.

Your W sure did place about 120% of the blame on your shoulders, didn't she?

Yes, but it's quickly becoming something that I'm all too used to.

Since I'm hopping on the end, I don't know this - do you have your own L? Do you agree with the terms of the D? Is that time schedule she laid out really OK with you?

Hey, no problem about end-hopping, I do it too. What's the better choice: Spending all day going through pages of threads or GAL-ing? No, I don't have an L. I've been very wary of getting one because A) I'm not sure if I need one, and B) don't they need a retainer for their services? I really can't afford anything, especially with the holidays coming up. If it's really necessary, though, I might have to consult the parents on helping me out.

I agree with the terms of the D since it will be the same as the S, which I helped file. The terms are about as fair as I could hope for. As for the time schedule, I assume that you're talking about the fact that she wants us to sign next month. What can I do about it, really? There's no point in not letting her D me. She's made it pretty clear that she doesn't want to be with me anymore.

I think staying dark probably isn't a bad idea. It sounds like any conversation you will have will just be unfruitful.

I think so, too. I've been thinking about last night a lot, and I boiled down that entire conversation to one simple translation: "I want both you and OM at the same time and I'm mad that I can't, so I'm going to try hard to get you to drop your boundaries.

In the immortal words of Meat Loaf and Jim Steinman: "I would do anything for love, but I won't do that."