TIMES THAT TRY MENS SOULS

[JustStunned]

Hello Gunny, I believe people chose to remain in love; to feel the emotion. I believe the WAS chooses to bury the emotion as part of an effort to rationalize the decision to walk away.

I believe the angrier STBX seems the harder she is working to keep it buried. Provided I am not antagonizing her to anger.

I continue to allow myself to feel this emotion for STBX. Just as I allow myself to feel anger, resentment and pity. I will not allow myself to permit these emotions to overwhelm rational thought. I have been wound tightly before. I am coping. I am watching the roller coaster.

Can I love STBX again? Yes I can. I have not stopped. I perceive your question to be, Can we reconcile?

Before that could happen she needs to work through several of her issues, as I am working on mine, and we would need to build a trust relationship.

In the mean time I have too much life to live, too many people counting upon me, and a few people watching for me to stumble and quit. I must continue to move forward, to embrace the path before me. It sounds easier than it is.

Year ago I read a slogan John Deere used. I think it applies here. "There are no simple solutions, only intelligent choices."

We were forged on the same island. The longer I walk this trail, the longer this trial goes on, the more I realize the relevance of the lessons learned there and in the years that followed.

Semper Fidelis